I was home from work sick the last 2 days, suffering a migraine again. It started Sunday with that niggling feeling that something wasn’t right but not quite sure if it would become the dreaded migraine or not. I hate those moments when you don’t know whether to fear the worst, or plan to go on with your life for the next couple of days. Once the balance is tipped and I know for sure it’s a migraine, I go through the denial and anger and all the 7 stages in a very short condensed amount of time. I cancel appointments and rearrange my schedule because I know I won’t be able to do anything for the at least the next 48 hours. I wonder if there’s food in the house that I can eat. Migraines (or the migraine medicine, I don’t know which) make me really hungry and if I don’t eat I get even sicker. In other words, when the first beginnings of a migraine hit, I hunker down and prepare for war.
For the past 5 years I’ve been taking sumatriptan, first 50mg and now 100mg. I get the feeling over time that the medicine is actually making the migraines last longer. I’m up to a minimum of 2 full days, not counting the build up and cool down periods. And I get these things at least once a month. It feels like not only a terrible headache that makes you want to put an ice pick through your skull, but also I feel like I have the flu. I’m hot and feverish and just feel like hell. So, in essence, I have a bad flu every month. And then the day after the headache is over, like today, I just feel tired and slow and a little bit spacey.
Another lovely effect of migraine is that I’m really depressed during the headache phase. I have made peace with this depression. I know what it is, and why it is, so it doesn’t really bother me anymore. I just embrace it and go with it and know that it will be over. Actually, I don’t even realize sometimes how depressed I am until it’s over and I feel SO much better. Only then I realize how really BAD I felt emotionally. Intellectually I know it won’t last so it doesn’t worry me.
For some reason, most of my attacks happen over the weekend so I don’t miss much work. I guess on the weekend I let my guard down and relax and then my body reacts.
Unfortunately, this time, I should have been working during the day and packing boxes for the move during the evenings. I managed to do 2 loads of laundry and pack 2 boxes during my 2 days at home. That took every bit of energy I had. Now I feel like I have to make up for it tomorrow, and the rest of the time before we move, to catch up on “my part”.
I’ve just found an interesting web page that lists an 8 step program to rid yourself of migraines using food. I know for sure that alcohol is a big migraine trigger for me. I suspect that chocolate is also, but I prefer to ignore that possibility. J I would be really sad if dairy products are also a trigger for me. I think that after we move, and life settles down a bit, I’d be willing to give this process a chance and see if it helps. I think this kind of diet would help keep weight down and make me feel lighter during my running. I have also found that if I get more exercise, the migraines are lighter and easier to deal with. If I start this program I’ll keep track of my progress and let you know if it makes any difference. I’m curious enough to try it. What have I got to lose?
Well, DB chimes in that he finds this diet scary and he would rather I go to a migraine specialist here in Amsterdam. Apparently there is one somewhere near Museumplein. He makes you go drug free for 2 months before he will treat you! THAT sounds scarier to me than the diet! Again, once things settle down, I’ll check it out and report back.